College worries
So here I am, wide awake at 4:48 in the morning. Why? Because I just had a dream about college. Nightmare, really.
I was moving into a dorm at a weird dream college (as dreams often make, well, everything) and my dear rents were leaving. The dream started with them packing up the empty boxes I wouldn't need and leaving. I tried following them back to the car but there was a river in the way (really, dream?! A river I have to swim though?!) and so I woke up terrified and lonely.
I am not one of those clingy children who can't even spend the night at their grandparents' house. I went to Africa without my parents and it took a lot to revert back from my independence! It is terrifying to be so far away from the dearest people in the world to me. They love me unconditionally. They make me food and keep a beautiful home. I don't want to leave them.
Another worry this dream has made me contemplate: what if my faith falls apart when I leave the house? As it is I rarely make time for God in my morning routine, so what will happen then? Should I make sure I go to a Christian school so they can help me grow in my faith and not let it fizzle?
I'm sorry- this is kinda a bunch.
-lonely and terrified
I was moving into a dorm at a weird dream college (as dreams often make, well, everything) and my dear rents were leaving. The dream started with them packing up the empty boxes I wouldn't need and leaving. I tried following them back to the car but there was a river in the way (really, dream?! A river I have to swim though?!) and so I woke up terrified and lonely.
I am not one of those clingy children who can't even spend the night at their grandparents' house. I went to Africa without my parents and it took a lot to revert back from my independence! It is terrifying to be so far away from the dearest people in the world to me. They love me unconditionally. They make me food and keep a beautiful home. I don't want to leave them.
Another worry this dream has made me contemplate: what if my faith falls apart when I leave the house? As it is I rarely make time for God in my morning routine, so what will happen then? Should I make sure I go to a Christian school so they can help me grow in my faith and not let it fizzle?
I'm sorry- this is kinda a bunch.
-lonely and terrified
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